Prone to Wander: Dying Thoughts
began Tuesday in the middle of the night,
so technically Wednesday. I woke up
a fire in my throat and extinguished it
honey lemon Halls, hot chamomile tea,
a little gurgling of salt water.
hot fire and deep chills,
gave me an antibiotic.
in throat diminished but cough replaced it.
Cough. Cough. Cough. (infinity and beyond)
pass. Six long ones. Way longer than normal.
Doctor and cried, “please fix this!”
the antibiotic and here’s three more meds.
may make you drowsy.”
OK, I can handle
diminishes, but nausea replaced it.
amounts of nausea.
room spins like waves.
time I stand up I gag.
I will take the
cough back please.
feel like I’m dying. No really.
think, “If I were to die today…”
think of my husband and boys,
David and Kevin.
family, friends and the library,
strong coffee and the classics,
To Kill A Mockingbird,
body pump class on Tuesdays.
was just starting to rediscover
hidden for years.
the glistening snow just outside.
I hope that all the people I love
that’s where I am now.
ridden. No relief (yet).
the while spinning in
be continued (hopefully).